So sometimes, it get scared and don't know how to handle myself. I've had to deal with some pretty tough things. I've started to open up more, but I don't know how to bridle my emotions. Im scared of my own emotions. I know that sounds stupid, but its the truth. I don't know how to handle my emotions. Is it better to be honest with someone about how you feel or is it better to just let things take their course and end up getting hurt? I definitely don't like to get hurt and that's why I put up so many walls. Strong and tough walls. Walls that only certain people have the keys to. I met someone who for some reason has a lot of keys. I didn't choose to give them those keys. We just get along so well, so naturally that I can be basically myself around them. I feel so at ease around this person, and I fear that if that person read this post they would turn heel are run from me. So is it better to keep things hidden or to show myself. I feel so torn, if I show myself I fear I will scare people I care for away. And if I hide my emotions that's just as bad as not being myself.
Maybe I am worrying to much, but I am just tense about things like this lately. If you are reading this it may not make much sense, but it makes a lot of sense in my head, minus the whole confused thing. I just have a good content feeling when I am around this person, I know it was brief and fleeting, but it felt good, warm. Any thoughts on what I should do?
