i am soo confused, some days i have the desire to make out with someone, but then when it happens and there is no emotion i feel so sad inside. and i want to push guys away from me so i can recover, but then i dont want to because i never know what will happen with the guys i do talk to. tonight i have been close to tears all night. i have been here for 3 weeks and i still haven't made any friends really. and that hurts. it might just be because i work all the time but, nobody has tried to be friends with me either. maybe its me. maybe my personality is not to the liking of people in utah. which hurts to say. i usually make friends kinda fast. this is the longest ive gone without having a big group of friends that i can just chill with. it makes me sad
i guess sometimes i need help, this is one of those times.


later on.


jessi